It was nice to have such a clearheaded workprocess for a change. But I also didn't push myself to try something new along the way.
Bringing the teambuilding discomfort back in the office.
Trying to make a more chaotic video. Difficulties with editing, have no feeling for this.
Stilllife video, without people for a change.
In the end I tried some things that felt less rigid but my mind still feels like concrete when making video's.
INSTALLATION DESIGN
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Clear idea from the beginning. Decided not to doubt it and just start executing immediatley.
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Click photo to go to video.
AUDIOVISUAL
Used weekly assignments to try random things. But also didn't leave the rigidness of my own expectations.
Allan Sekula
Learning to speak to people was an important step. Unfortunately, because I kept hesitating with starting, this all happened in the last three weeks which makes the steps I took small.
It makes me restless to see that right now it looks more like an exersice than a project where I pushed myself into something unknown.
And how would they respond if it happened right now?
Barbara Visser, long term project.
When approaching people I basically want them to lay in the bushes at some point and act a certain way. But to actually achieve this I have to completely let go of this idea.
Sophie Calle
DISSECTING METHODOLOGIES
Really enjoyed talking to strangers for this project. It helped to stop being sneaky, which is something I really wanted to get rid of. But looking at the project I feel the same as with the dike project. I didn't push myself further to eventually do something I didn't knew I could. It's still on the save side.
Most chaotic course. Doubted every move before having started, but it was also the most valuable.
weekly assignments
+ art history texts
FICTION & SOCIETY
Just as chaotic in the beginning but found a way to trust my stomach feeling.
Stephen Gill
Asking people if they could reflect on the breaking dikes as if it happened 20 years ago: what did they do?
Testing out the fieldtrip idea. It's overly conceptual. What
do I actually wanna do?
Tired of overthinking, will go with the first idea that pops in my head, in this case: dikes. The Dutch dikes and what happens if they flood.
Rineke Dijkstra
Sofia de Benedictis
THE SELFPORTRAIT:
screenshots from the moment after people in a prankshow start to doubt the situation. Recognize myself in how I often don't understand my surroundings.
Starting to trust the feeling of doing something first and think about it later.
CIVIL SOCIETY LAB
Writing is helping to clear my head.
Mapping out The Hague in a sociogeographic way. Trying out a new approach every day. Got over the fear of my camera feeling like a burden.
THE OTHER:
Honestly, I have no idea what
I started doing here
SOCIETY OF THE SPECTACLE, GUY DEBORD: The Representation of The Hague.
GRAPHIC DESIGN
I find editing and designing one of the hardest things. How to make this course usefull?
A MAP ON HOW TO
LEAVE THE BRAIN ALONE
AND TRY TO TRUST
THE FEELING IN THE
STOMACH.
A painter paints the street corner
I draw the painter painting
a man passes by and photographs me drawing the painter and the painter painting the corner
a boy passes by and draws me
After receiving feedback on these photos that
it was really bad and uncomfortable to watch I got
some breathing space in my head. My expectations went to 0 which made me excited to just do what I felt like doing.
started to combine images of people saying goodbye with Tinder material.
But I notice I start to dislike to use Tinder for a concept more and more.
I photograph the painter
the painter paints me photographing him
the painter sells his painting
the painter turns his chair and starts a new painting
I draw the painter painting
a man passes by and draws us.
CMND+ or - to zoom in/out.
Eventually used the course to re edit my failed images. What I see as failed made me see how my expectations block me from seeing new things.